Thank you Cape Town

‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?’ - Marianne Williamson

On my last night in Cape Town I find myself at Bravo in Mouille Point. It is an Italian café with murals and an outside setting at the bottom of a boutique hotel next to the lighthouse. I watch the fashion shoot at the adjoining table out of the corner of my eye.

There’s no doubt, here you will find the crowd that makes the trends, as opposed to the trendy crowd in Camps Bay. I look at my friends and I look up to them because they are involved in amazing things, from making movies to creating works of art out of wool. They chase their dreams without fear, whether it’s to have a family or become a popular columnist.

And not only are they all that but they also love me just the way I am. Even though I am a little odd. I fit in with them and I make sense through their eyes.

Sometimes we find ourselves in relationships and sometimes we lose ourselves. I lost myself in my enchantment with Mohammed and in the process I have become afraid that I am not good enough being just me. It is not an unusual thing to happen when trying to fit in.

What I have learned from this is that I can only be the best of me. Trying to be anything else can only lead to pain.

The warm night air wraps around me and the pink pinotage flows through and through me until I know that my purpose on earth is to be everything I am and not just parts of it. Here's to the best of me and those who can see it!

Thank you (you will know if you do) for loving me.